I hate to say it...
But it's probably me. As they say 'Misery Loves Company', the thought of being alone passed my mind more than once and I have been reluctantly to go out of my house for more than a month. I haven't been looking for work yet I thank the lord that he's still watching out for me. Lately, I've been reading my old blog posts and I must say that I was much stronger back then. What is wrong with me now? How could I have lost that urge to fight on in this cruel world?
I'm having so many regrets now that I do not want to face them but still I have to. Maybe that is why the Lord is trying to help me get back on my feet. It's been four days since my boyfriend talked to me. He's mad at me for something that happened last Sunday; jealousy and misleading event that took place.
Yesterday, around 2pm the PLDT people called asking if we got the phone bill. And yes, I was actually holding the bill in my hands and I was about to leave the house when my friend sent a text message when will go online `coz she might have a project for me. I went online and talked to her for an hour or so. I totally forgot about the phone bill. Then my mother sent a message that they will come by the house to pick me up coz they want to watch the Fire works in Ayala.
I sent a message to the client that I'm blabbing about from my recent post, asking them if they got my message the other day then she replied with the word "Opo." It's a word meaning "yes" but with more respect. I felt guilty that my responses with them the few days before were somewhat rude. I guess I still need to fix the way I think. I don't know; I get so cranky if someone did something bad to me.
I waited for them till 6pm, then my mom sent a message that they decided not to go. What a wasted day. But I am hoping that today will not be. I still haven't gotten any sleep and I don't tend to since I want to pay the phone bill early today. I might not be able to wake up on time if I go to sleep now.
---------- Its Probably Me --------
Sting & The Police
If the night turned cold / And the stars looked down / And you hug yourself / On the cold cold ground / You wake the morning / In a stranger's coat / No-one would you see / You ask yourself, 'Who'd watch for me?' / My only friend, who could it be? / It's hard to say it / I hate to say it / But it's probably me
When your belly's empty / And the hunger's so real / And you're too proud to beg / And too dumb to steal / You search the city / For your only friend / No-one would you see / You ask yourself, 'Who could it be?' / A solitary voice to speak out and set me free / I hate to say it / I hate to say it / But it's probably me
You're not the easiest person I ever got to know / And it's hard for us both to let our feelings show / Some would say / I should let you go your way / You'll only make me cry / If there's one guy, just one guy / Who'd lay down his life for you and die / It's hard to say it / I hate to say it / But it's probably me
When the world's gone crazy, and it makes no sense / And there's only one voice that comes to your defense / And the jury's out / And your eyes search the room / And one friendly face is all you need to see / If there's one guy, just one guy / Who'd lay down his life for you and die / It's hard to say it / I hate to say it / But it's probably me
I hate to say it / I hate to say / But it's probably me / I hate to say it / I hate to say / But it's probably me / I hate to say it / I hate to say / But it's probably me
I'm having so many regrets now that I do not want to face them but still I have to. Maybe that is why the Lord is trying to help me get back on my feet. It's been four days since my boyfriend talked to me. He's mad at me for something that happened last Sunday; jealousy and misleading event that took place.
Yesterday, around 2pm the PLDT people called asking if we got the phone bill. And yes, I was actually holding the bill in my hands and I was about to leave the house when my friend sent a text message when will go online `coz she might have a project for me. I went online and talked to her for an hour or so. I totally forgot about the phone bill. Then my mother sent a message that they will come by the house to pick me up coz they want to watch the Fire works in Ayala.
I sent a message to the client that I'm blabbing about from my recent post, asking them if they got my message the other day then she replied with the word "Opo." It's a word meaning "yes" but with more respect. I felt guilty that my responses with them the few days before were somewhat rude. I guess I still need to fix the way I think. I don't know; I get so cranky if someone did something bad to me.
I waited for them till 6pm, then my mom sent a message that they decided not to go. What a wasted day. But I am hoping that today will not be. I still haven't gotten any sleep and I don't tend to since I want to pay the phone bill early today. I might not be able to wake up on time if I go to sleep now.
---------- Its Probably Me --------
Sting & The Police
If the night turned cold / And the stars looked down / And you hug yourself / On the cold cold ground / You wake the morning / In a stranger's coat / No-one would you see / You ask yourself, 'Who'd watch for me?' / My only friend, who could it be? / It's hard to say it / I hate to say it / But it's probably me
When your belly's empty / And the hunger's so real / And you're too proud to beg / And too dumb to steal / You search the city / For your only friend / No-one would you see / You ask yourself, 'Who could it be?' / A solitary voice to speak out and set me free / I hate to say it / I hate to say it / But it's probably me
You're not the easiest person I ever got to know / And it's hard for us both to let our feelings show / Some would say / I should let you go your way / You'll only make me cry / If there's one guy, just one guy / Who'd lay down his life for you and die / It's hard to say it / I hate to say it / But it's probably me
When the world's gone crazy, and it makes no sense / And there's only one voice that comes to your defense / And the jury's out / And your eyes search the room / And one friendly face is all you need to see / If there's one guy, just one guy / Who'd lay down his life for you and die / It's hard to say it / I hate to say it / But it's probably me
I hate to say it / I hate to say / But it's probably me / I hate to say it / I hate to say / But it's probably me / I hate to say it / I hate to say / But it's probably me
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